The last 2 years have been ROUGH; emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. In Fall of 2017 I split from my husband. One day things were 'fine' and the next morning I was suddenly a single mom having to figure it out alone.
This is extremely hard for me to admit, and extremely hard to post pictures of (I decided to be brave)... but at that point in my life in 2017, I weighed above 200 lbs (208 at my highest). At 5-foot nothin', that was not a healthy weight for me, and a hard realization to swallow.
After my separation, I lost about 25 LBS within 3 months... I call this the "Divorce Diet". Although it was nice to shed some pounds, this "divorce diet" was far from healthy. I guess I could explain this as unintentional eating disorder to an extent. I tried to eat, but anything that touched my lips made me gag. Food smelled horrible, everything tasted terrible. Forcing myself to eat didn't help because the nausea was so intense that it came right back up anyway. (sorry TMI?)
After a few looong months, I got my appetite back. I was beginning to handle life much better and felt happier overall and decided to continue losing weight. But this time in a healthy way. I lost another 30 LBS by working out on my lunch break, eating better foods, and being more active in general. As life got busier, I didn't prioritize working out, I found myself distracted with social media, and overall wasting time. I didn't eat terrible, but I wasn’t fueling my body how it deserved. I didn't ever gain any weight during this time, but I also wasn't losing more either.
So, of course for the new year of 2020 I had a goal to get back on track. This time my goal felt different though, somehow more attainable. Something clicked in my head that it's not just about fitness or weight loss, but about total body health. I can't be truly healthy unless every aspect of my body is healthy; mind, body, spirit, etc. and I could feel the need to heal spiritually. I was neglecting myself. Recently I’ve been implementing meditation into my daily routine, cutting out distractions/screen time, pinpointing the areas spiritually that I need some extra healing. Being more mindful in everyday tasks. It all adds up.
So, here I am now publicly re-committing to losing my last 30 lbs.
Here are my progress photos from the last 2 years. I am SO proud of how far I’ve come, and my determination to keep going and making a complete lifestyle change.